Smile..

RUN!! Please run!' she screamed. she scratched at the walls till her fingers bleed. The girl in the middle of the room wouldn't listen, soon she would understand.
     We stood united after death. We all looked the same, we had all suffered the same pain. The same pain which this girl would have to endure too. He had carved a smile into our faces. He wanted us to be happy when we died. Took our eyes so we couldn't see what he did to us. But we could feel it. They had tried to warn me. I didn't listen and look where that got me. I was hard not to feel sorry for that girl. As she walked out the room with him, she didn't know what we knew yet. He was the last to leave the room. The last thing he does is Look back at us, smiling. A smile that says, soon she'll be with you, soon she'll know. A smile that says 'I win'...




'I died here' He whispered.
'what?' A blond haired woman turned around in the passenger seat and stared at the little boy with shocked eyes. 'There in that field I died there' He said softly, a tear slipping down his pale face.
'No honey that can't be true,' she said glancing at her husband who gave her a worried look. 'You didn't die there because you're here with me and your daddy aren't you?' her warm voice tinted with concern.
His cold light blue eyes moved from the car window. 'You don't understand and I guess you never will,' he hissed through his teeth. Eyes filled with disgust and hate for her, he slowly looked out the window again. She looked at her husband again but this time he dropped his eyes. Silence filled the car. Screaming over the sound of the cars, speeding down the road near them.
   'Right!' the young man in the drivers seat said. 'we had better get your case out the boot,' he said to his wife and got out the car, walking round to open the boot. The woman swept out the car. Her long golden hair lifting in the breeze. She pulled her jacket tighter around herself and went to her husband. 'What was he talking about?' she whispered, her breath becoming white smoke in the air. 'I don't know Vicky, probably just trying to spook us hahaa I'm sure he'll be fine, this your first time saying over at my house, just enjoy yourself. I think you need to smile more!' He chuckled taking her hand.
'But Mark! what if..' Vicky started.
'It will be fine. smile' He laughed and squeezed her hand. She smiled and squeezed back. Underneath the smile she was worried, and from the pit of her stomach she had a bad feeling about all of this.
      'Do you big strong men want some lunch?' Vicky laughed.
'mmm sounds amazing honey,' Mark beamed kissing her as he came into the kitchen. Icy cold blue eyes watched them. Vicky looked into them guiltily.
          She didn't feel right to be here with her husbands kid. She has never even meet his child before! She knew it sounded weird. Her and Mark had had a secret wedding. He didn't want to force a new Mum on to Toby his child, but had wanted to get married. It was weird, she didn't know why she had agreed to marry him with out seeing his kid first. She would like to think that she would still have married him but Toby had taken a very big dislike to Vicky and seemed to try everything to come between her and Mark.




'Toby?' she whispered quietly entering her room. 'what are you doing in here with the light off?' She flicked the switch on. She gasped with horror. The room was covered in blood written messages. 'LEAVE NOW' 'GO NOW....WHILE YOU STILL CAN' 'BEFORE ITS TOO LATE' 'RUN!' Vicky was terrified and dropped to the floor unconscious.
  'Vicky? Vicky? are you okay?' Mark's voice swirled behind a cloudy face.
'what happened?' She murmured.
'oh Vicky, I came up here and you had passed out!' he cried. The memory of what she had seen before she had collapsed rushed to meet her. The smoke that had tainted her view cleared but the face was not that of Marks that she saw, it was a woman. Her eyes had been gouged out leaving black empty holes. Her mouth slit open at the sides. Her skin was stained in blood. 'ARRRGGHHHH!!!' Vicky screamed getting to her feet and backing against the wall. 'whats wrong,' the woman whispered with Mark's voice.
Vicky screamed again and closed her eyes tightly, sinking to the floor. She curled up into a ball and rocked herself. Hands over her eyes. 'Vicky! It's okay. Its me Vic's!' Mark comforted her. She slowly peered over the top of her sweating hands. She was meet by her husbands face. She gave a sigh of relief, bursting into tears and then collapsed into his arms. 'shh,' Mark whispered softly. 'Its okay now.' He gently rubbed her back, cuddling her tightly and softly kissing her head. 'its okay,' He repeated looking at Toby who half smiled back a him.
   She didn't recall much of the events after that. She was scared and confused. Mark made her a hot cup of tea and cuddled her on the sofa. She must have fallen asleep with him. She couldn't remember drifting off but she must have done because she one minute she was next to her Husband then next she's running for her life in a nightmare.

    she was on the sofa with Mark. Toby walked in and glared at her with hate filled eyes. 'Its time,' He whispered softly. The white walls of the room suddenly seemed to dance with a vile green colour. 'What?' Vicky said in a confused tone.
'Its time,' Toby repeated but this time a little louder. Vicky stared at him searching his face for answers. 'Its time!' Toby said even louder now.
'Stop it Toby, just stop it!' Vicky shouted at him, getting off the sofa clutching at her golden hair. 'Tell him to stop Mark!' She pleaded at Mark as Toby started chanting the words over ad over again.
   Mark looked up into his wife's eyes. She drew back in horror. his mouth was twisted into a smile showing his pure white sharpened teeth. His eyes wide and fixed on her. He looked at her with a lustful hunger. 'But its time,' Mark sang letting the words slip off his tongue. Lingering in the air in the room. 'Its time,' Mark and Toby Began chanting, getting louder and louder.
   Vicky backed away from the sofa. Switching her eyes between Mark and Toby. They weren't the people they were before. Their eyes had been swallowed up by darkness. All feeling and human emotion gone and just huge black holes in there place, that threatened to suck your soul dry. The were advancing getting closer and closer. She couldn't move she was too scared...
  
    Vicky never woke up, then again was she even asleep in the first place. I don't expect you to know what was running through her mind when she was slaughtered. The main thing was, she thought she would fight back. She had imagined things like that happening and when ever she imagined them she always fought back. She knows now that when someones hand is caressed around her throat, or when her so called husband is feeding off her blood, its not like she had imagined it. When she looked into the eyes of death she couldn't run, shout, move, she was paralysed with fear. I would like to say that she died a painless death, but I can't. I could lie and say that she fought a good fight.
I could lie and say she didn't scream.
at least I can say she died with a smile on her face....
LittlePandaa
     xXx

Humanity's Mistake

We all sit together and hide our pain
under masks that cloak our face
though prying eyes dare peek inside
to find the sins that we try to hide

I found my way with bleeding eyes
burnt by the the filth the world did rise
I can't bear to look at what has become
so we go blind ourselves with drugs and rum

We pray that death will find its way
before a knife may fast lay
inside our souls and make us bleed
as pitilessly cry for their own need

Wrapped up in ourselves, that's our mistake
so that we self indulge until we break
every ounce of respect that we once had
that now lays in the gutter, so very sad

I see that this world is not fit for me
and lower class people around me I see
So I will take my exit from this mixed up stage
until humanity starts over on a brand new page...
LittlePanda
     xXx

Till death do us part..

    "I promise I will always be with you,"... I remember that was the last thing he said. A whisper left in time not forgotten but slowly fading. I had to cling on to that moment. I promised him I would never let go and I wasn't about to let him down now. I would make sure we were together even if it meant doing what I feared most....
   The phone vibrated shaking the table at the side of the bed. It woke me up from a deep sleep where I was happy and warm. As I sat up and reached for the phone the cold settled on my skin and the darkness scratched at my eyes, willing me to adjust to the dim early morning light that was seeping through the window. I looked at my phone the light blinding my sleeping eyes. 5:50am one new text I smiled as I pressed view feeling much more awake... 'Meet me in 15mins by the park :) xxxxxxx'  The text read. I quickly texted back okay and rushed to get ready.
    5 minutes passed, I sat on the bed with socks in hand. My mind was racing nearly as fast as my heart was beating. Shivers of excitement running through me. I sneaked out the house, trying with all my effort not to make a single sound that would disturb the sleeping inside of the house. The stairs whispered a creak as I softly treaded down them. The house seemed to know i was awake. Questioning why I was up so early. The answer, I could not find but soon I would know.
   6:02am I was walking in the cold morning air now. The wind nipping at my clothes and hair. I pulled my jacket tighter around myself and walked on. Smiling.
   I stood by the tree which we always meet at. Its brown skin seeming lighter than the other trees. The gloom of the sky hidden by its wide arms covered with leaves. Soft warm hands suddenly covered my eyes. I jumped slightly back to be met by a warm body that seemed to fit to my shape. "Guess who,"  A familiar male voice whispered softly in my ear, sending warm shivers down my body. "Oh I have no idea," I replied sarcastically beaming with a cheesy grin. I felt the body move around to in front of me. "Well..." The comforting voice started but before he finished his lips were gently pressed against mine. I felt my heart beat speed up. Slamming against my ribs.His hands moved from my eyes down to my waist, pulling me towards him. Our bodies fitted together hearts beating as one, singing in perfect harmony....
     7am. We sat cuddled up together, our arms around each other. I could feel his warmth against me, oozing under my skin. We watched the sky in silence. The sun was just peeking above the land filling it with streaks of shocking pink, warm orange and deep blood reds. "Its beautiful," I whispered. I has intended to say it louder but the words slipped from me as I gazed at the shear wonder of the sight in front of me. "I know," He smiled, his eyes sparkling and shimmering in the light, even more beautiful that the sunrise itself. We kissed again.
   7:39. We had moved to a different spot now. The park was getting the early rush of dog walkers with bright eyes set on keeping their pooch happy. We stood on the edge of dead end cliff. A huge drop into the freezing waters below made me uncomfortable to stand to close to the edge. "I don't like standing here," I laughed nervously.
"Oh scared of falling hu?" He chuckled
"No!" I lied crossing my arms but smiling. He grinned back at me. Suddenly he grabbed me and pretended to push me over the cliff but keeping a tight grip on me. I screamed, clinging on to him and laughing.
   "April?" He purred stepping back from the edge of the cliff and gently pulling me with him. "yeah?" I asked looking into his beautiful diamond eyes. He smiled putting his hand on my cheek. "Promise you will be with me forever.. marry me April!" He exclaimed, diamond like eyes widening searching my eyes for an answer. "of course I will Tristan!" I cried throwing my arms around him. We stood swaying in the growing wind on top of the cliff.
   I guess we should have seen it coming. But I will always blame myself for what happened next. I could have done something to stop it. If I've just tried harder to hold on. I promised I would never let go...
  It happened fast. We were kissing eyes tightly shut and we must have swayed to far and suddenly there was a horrible cracking sound and next time I know I'm lying on the ground desperately clinging on to Tristan's hand, as he hangs struggling off the edge of the cliff. "I won't let go I promise Tristan! I'll never let go," I howled through the now suddenly violent wind. The wind tore at out flesh, stinging my already flooding eyes. I could see through my tears he was clutching my hand tears streaming down his face. I couldn't bear it. My arm screamed in agony, straining to hold his weight. "you can't hold on baby," Tristan whispered. "I can, I will hold on!" I screamed in desperation.
"let go April, you can't take the strain" He uttered quietly through a dry throat.
"No!" I shrieked in hysterics now... I saw his eyes die right then the hope faded from them and all that remained was pure fear and love. "let go" He repeated softly this time smiling through tears. "its okay baby, I promise I will always be with you," as he said this he let his grip on my hand loosen. My whole body was shaking now, numb from the wind. all my muscles were cying in pain and frustration. I gave one final effort to pull him up but I could barley lift my own body off the damp ground. I could feel my grip on him slip "I love you," I whispered as my hand gave way and let him go. As he fell the fear in his eyes drifted into the wind and as he soundlessly whispered back 'I love you too' love pooled into his eyes.
    My hand out stretched towards him hoping some how he would just suddenly be there again. Our eyes locked and he smiled as his body body slammed against the water like a china doll. he disappeared under the black water. My eyes searched for anything to tell me he was still alive. Nothing. I was torn apart by grief. I could feel my body burning but I ignored it and stood against my body's will.
   I said I would never let go and I wouldn't especially when he needed me the most now. I stared down into the dark pit of water. He could still be alive right?  its been less than 30 seconds since he hit the water, A person can survive for 7 minutes without breathing. 7 Minutes before his heart stops beating and his body shuts down forever. I took a deep breath and jumped....
  The wind rushing past me gave me company on the way down. I could almost feel it twist around my fingers as if holding my hand. I silently feel to my death I didn't scream like I expected myself to do. To tell the truth It was almost relaxing to be falling and leaving the world. The freezing water brought me back to life and made me breath for the first time since my feet left the ground.
   The cold made my aching body scream even worse than before. I tried to look above the water for Tristan but the dark water seemed to have no depth. I took a huge gasp of air and swept under the water. A scared girl determined to follow her beloved anywhere even to a place where hearts beat no longer. The cold water bite into me ripping away at my flesh like a thousand freezing silver blades cutting into me.
  Through the pain I kicked past it all and pushed myself on. I outstretched my arms feeling for anything as I couldn't see through the murky black waters. my hands scrabbled on rock as I came to the bottom. My muscles thanked God that this was a shallow part of the sea. I searched around, my lungs were now burning and weakening by the second. I whirled in circles scrambling along the sand and rock in blind panic. My Lungs started to cry out in anger demanding air. I swallowed down dry salver hoping that would make my lungs hold out. My fumbling hands fell upon a body, still slightly warm. I would have given a sigh of relief by I had no air left and my lungs were jolting inside me. I pulled the body up, found his mouth and pressed my lips against his and pushed the last of the air trapped in the depths of my lungs into his. I felt his hand move and clutch softly at me. I had nothing left inside me now. In a stupid panic I breathed opening my mouth and letting water gush into my lungs. I chocked on the water but hauled Tristan up on my shoulder and kicked hard. I had to get him out no matter what. I could see the faint light above the water. Even more water surged down my windpipe. I was two kicks away from the surface now. My lungs stopped trying, giving into the icy waters. everything stopped and I could feel the world slipping away from me. Darkness clouded the light of the surface. I was looking into the eyes of death and It wasn't painful as I had imagined it.
       Through the darkness a light shone through. The brightest light I had ever seen. It blinded me as if burning through my eyes. "don't let go!" I heard a familiar male voice scream from above me. I tightened my grip and realised I was holding someones hand. The light suddenly rushed to meet me and I felt warm lips move from my mouth as I coughed and splutter up gallons of water. I opened my eyes and although everything was slightly blurry I could tell Tristan was leaning over me. His eyes wide with shock and panic. I swallowed and felt my throat burn. "April are you okay?" he wheezed trying to catch his breath. "I think so," I whispered through a dying voice. His face washed with relief and he dropped next to me on a rock by the side of the cliff. "what happened?" I asked panting as I slowly regained breath. "I fell and you came in after me," I turned my head to see him smiling at me. "but we never got out the water I let go," I said confused my head spinning slightly. "you gave me air April," He laughed "And when I felt you go limp in the water I had just enough energy and air to get us both to the surface,"
"oh.. That means you saved my life!" I beamed.
"I was just returning the favour honey" He laughed. I laughed too and squeezed his hand. He squeezed back.
  "I love you Tristan," I whispered and cuddled up to his soaking wet body.
"I love you too April," He smiled and we both closed our eyes and left the cold behind, into the light we walked holding hands, together forever till death do us part.
PandaPooh
     xXx

under a dying sky

The sky crashed down on to the streets filling then up with broken dreams and discarded human bodies. Memories faded with their eyes as the air swept from them and left them with only death to breath in. Under the shards of shattered sky you could hear the cries from the damned. That's what they named us because no one could save the damned, and no one could save us. Many screamed for help, a waste of air, clinging on to the hope someone would find them, help them, save them. It was useless. Pointless. I lay under the rubble thinking of how long It would take for the air to run out under here. When would I gasp for breath but no air would fill my lungs. I hoped that death would come quickly and silently. I just wanted to be free from this hell and it seemed the only way was to find an escape through death.
  The world was hurting you could hear it. my face pressed against the ground I started to hear things I wouldn't have imagined. Moans and shudders from the earth. Sometimes I think it was crying. weeping into the night, silently but I could still hear its muffled sniffs and sobs. I never though of the world to be like a father or mother but really that's what it is. A distrot mother crying over her lost children. The world cried for those who were dead, those who denied that death was coming, the hopefuls and the dying. the world cried for me.
   You have no real record of time under here. And you can't tell if its day or night as its always pitch black. At what I thought to be night sleep never came. the sky pressing down on me became painful and the agony of this drove me crazy. I couldn't move. Couldn't sleep. Couldn't kill my self. I was completely trapped with no escape. How I tried to move, just to move a finger but my muscles ached and would scream in protest at the mere thought of movement.
  The world had become silent, I strained my ears for the faintest sound of sobbing but nothing. Not only that but the screams and moans from in the rubble had died. This could mean only three things. 1.they had finally realised that no help was coming 2.they had all lost their voices and could only mime the words now or 3.They had run out of air and now I was the only one left. I felt an anger inside of me hating the people that had so easily left this torture. Left me to sufferer alone. I cried....
   I had never cried before and I never did again. It felt good to cry, letting the pain wash out of me as I felt the earth beneath me lap up my pain, anger and sorrow and it gently rocked me to sleep.
   I could feel the warmth on my face like a thousand suns all glowing down on me. I had been so cold trapped under the sky, this is amazing. I let the warmth fill every part of me, taking it all in until all the heat was just about to burst through my skin cracking my bones open. This warmth grew to a steady heat and then to a burning fire and then to a raging furnace. The heat scratched at my skin tearing at my eyes. I could feel my skin dripping off my bones turning to liquid. The pain ran through my veins and swiped at my heart every time it passed by. It felt as if I was being torn apart from the inside out.
     I remember thinking ,when I was little, about heaven. I use to wonder what it was like and how do you get there. I guess I though heaven would be a place in the sky with lots of fluffy clouds and halos and wings...but its not. I know how you get here too. I though that maybe you have to go through the sun to get here but you don't turns out you don't have to go that far...
   I'm sitting on the sky now looking at my lifeless body. I look relaxed now lying there face against the earth eyes closed. Listening. I though the world was sobbing how wrong I was. I know the truth now. For I am one of the damned who wonders this place they call heaven. we all sit under the ground and cry. we cry for the living, those who deny that death is coming, the hopeful and the dying. And most of all we cry for you...
LittlePanda
    xXx